I wish I had

I have my blog. You could see that. But I never feel I ever had. Why? Because I don't blog. At least now I don't. Although I have promised to myself I will write... Seem drown in a pool of mess I've created for me myself. They are like disease' which keeps poisoning my blood, ruining my daily life, even leading me to disaster.

I wish I had made a good start. But it seem I had blown it...